i lost to Fakrul.. its the first time i have lost to him and it was so frustrating and disappointing for me.. i tried and tried but i just couldnt beat him.. he was just too good for me.. i struggled the entire match and let him control..

after that i went to my aunt's for dinner and came back home after dinner.. going for training as usual.. nothing interesting about my life..

when i came home, went online and chatted with Andria.. she told me some bad news and yeah, it hurt.. i cant say i didnt expect it.. i saw it coming.. i was just too stubborn to face the fact.. i guess that makes me kinda mad at myself for allowing it to go so deep.. life's lessons are harsh.. and to all you people who have someone to be with, someone who cares for you and someone who is always there for you, hear me out.. be thankful for having the one you love love you back.. (i know you heard this already Andria) dont take for granted of those who love you and those who care about you because you will never know when you will just lose it all.. appreciate the thing that is love because not everyone has the luxury of experiencing it.. sometimes you may feel that you have felt love but think again, look back, rewind and replay, its all a lie.. i feel love is over rated.. whatever right?

i'm gonna stop making myself feel worse now.. no point in doing that anyway.. i've already sunk to the lowest the deepest the darkest i could go.. oh well, its not any different after all this setback.. life has never been kind, lay back and you will fall behind.. you still have your family to catch you when you fall.. remember your family.. because no matter what, they mean more than anything else you can think of..

currently listening to :

Keep on Loving You

by REO Speedwagon

ivan